Down in my Icy grave

Dark are the skies lit by the neon lights;
I walk on the street in embrace of the wind.
Fear, that gnaws me in its jaws;
I bury my head in my hands from the world.
And the voice in my head won't leave me alone...

Black are the walls that imprison my soul;
Darkness surrounds me in the cloak of the night.
Down, deep inside I say a prayer for my soul;
My phobias ruling the life I once had.
And the voice in my head questions my faith...
All that I need from thee to be free...

Lower me down in my grave;
And bid me farewell.
Lower me down in my grave;
With the flowers I'll wither away.Alone in the dark, in the silence of the night;
Long is the road to the lights of the day.
I close my eyes in the frozen ground;
I see my old self in the cold soothing soil.
And the voice in my head silenced by faith...

Where Dark and Light don’t differ

Barbaric tempered steel strike forth and toll our days
the red and black of our Victorian crest
We flag beneath... beneath the solar seas
we grant as the might to conquer so spread be our wrath...

Meet the voice of us dark & blind souls as it blasts from an open sky
victorious we live over all strong men under us fall
The longer we ride this yearn will make us find
where dark and light don't differ...

Winterized... blackening descends
Mesmerized... into demonlands

Far... far and further away
In mightful strong and mindless realms
We flag beneath... beneath the solar seas
again it's time to conquer so spread be our wrath...
Where dark and light don't differ...
The longer we ride the stronger we stride...

Only Living Witness

Long before the siege us lifted
See that more than men were felled
The desolate expanse the victor
The conqueror, the void, the well

Life had slithered forth from it
The actual antagonist
In every battle fought against
Apparent need for quieting and

The victor's exultant moment
Adrenaline flow fleeting
Human agony's no the answer
So why is it in the plan?

Life had slithered forth from it
The actual antagonist
In every battle fought against
Apparent need for quieting
And lifelessness in time

Years of silent sorrow

Farewell... lengthening pain inside me
Harness bells... I hear them calling me
A demon... watch my walk in snow
Remain... my years of silent sorrow

Dome in the sky black winds to taste
shadowed spirits lead my way...
Drifting overly alone years of silent sorrow
until I'm home...

Bitterness with bitterness you bitter me...
Emptiness with emptiness you empty me...
Darkness with darkness you darkened me
this journey black before me...

Farewell... nothing breathes within me
Harness bells... sounding cold behind me
A demon... with frozen eyes opened
this journey black behind me...

The Cleansed Soul

Out from the darkened night,
Into the burning hot cleansing steam...
My weak endeavor to stay clean;
From all the filth that I've gladly taken in.
Failed escape from reality;
My soul lies unwanted with a stain of sin...
I feel myself impure;
I need the cleansing;
Craving for more of your love...

I feel myself unclean;
I need the cleansing;
Oh, wash me clean from these stains in me...
Out from the hot burning steam,
Into the frozen cold granular snow...

The filth I've seen on my way;
Hasn't stain me like the evil from within.
Evil deeds and words I say;
I've soiled my soul with a stain of sin...
I feel myself unclean;
I need your blessing;
Only you can clean these stains in me...

The Riding Winds

Living a life of dishonor
Hoping in vain to touch happiness
Day after day I've built a world of lies
The dreams were my aim
The stream in my veins
What is to live in a world
That doesn't need you...
And the pain tore my veins
I close my eyes on the sunset
No more suffer no more deceptions

I feel my body ready to leave this earth
This is my long awaited rebirth
And I die, I die alone
No one to cry for me
No tears to regrets me
The bereavement of a nameless body

I face alone this immortal throne
Now I hear them, they're guiding me
The necrowinds are welcoming me
Listen to them and you'll know
What's hidden beyond the dawn
Draped in black thus I appear
I drink the blood of your throat
Not a demon, not a vampire
I'm just a child of darkness...

In the Final Hour

Painkillers to make my day
Life is a thrill what can I say
A pretty face and perfect style
Beautiful body only for a while
Seduced by fashion, I'm better than you
I won't be second cause that won't do
I must be on top, too far to drop
Loosing my grip, how can I stop

In the final hour
Dust returns to dust
Then we live on forever
Facing life's choices we must

My life is traveling at the speed of light
Quiet the mind, To find what is right
I'm pulled and stretched in every direction
Trying to live a life of perfection
I must slow down and think through this maze
Who can help me see through this haze
Gotta take a stand gotta take a hold
Ooh want you to come and save my soul

The Heretic Side of Wisdom

Praying for an end to come
Craving for the redemption,
Engulfed in a morality
So blind and miserable.
Dying for a man unknown
Or an image so wrong
Killing on adrenaline

Burning the faith of the others
Untold rites that ceased to be
Rejoice for mine is the might
Hell! is nothing but a game!

Live all behind,
Over your fears,
Over your dreams,
Over your flesh...
In the corner of my mind
There is the thin line
Between lie and life
You obviously deny.
And I scream.....
For Saviour to come
For my soul to drown

I hold freedom in my hands...
The blade...that will open my veins
And spread the blood of freedom on this rotten soil!
Wise men no longer stalking this elegy of light
Which is mankind,
Your death as a cold breath,
An immeasurable loss.
Narrow minds are the new demons
And there shall be no more hope
Until the ancient skin is burnt...
And past is forgotten.
Hell! is nothing but a game!

Discover me like emptiness

I run this world alone
A song stuck in my mind
Are you feeling alright?
Don't mind if you ask me once

Discover me like emptiness
A defense for a broken heart
Still offers a smile to the world betrayed...

Always close to the drop
Disappear with yesterday
Cure this dream that makes me fall

Blame me...
Escape me...
As you walked away
Tie me...
For my sake
To the dream that haunts you

Could never stand the middle
Want to go far and further
But something drags me down
Shapes me...
Forms me...
Into dillusion

As I bank other options
Make this picture distant
Signing off
Leave me alone
I blur you into the never...

Always close to the drop
Disappear with yesterday
Cure this dream that makes me fall

Ordinary Lives

Egotism dictates human relations
A world where fashion outshines morality
Here success is written in blood-red colours
Designed by the thirst for power

Gather the faithful and propose a toast
To the epoch of indifference
Gather the faithful

An all to ordinary story
With an aftertaste so bitter
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
I'm losing myself, sinking deeper down
I'm caught in the world wounded web

A time represented by the void
An excuse without content
Stuck in the abyss of existence
With a content void of excuse

An all to ordinary story
This is my story
With an aftertaste so bitter

Sinking deeper down
I'm caught - I'm caged
I'm gone

The New Words

The great word of blessedness
and a feeling of ease
a cup of the well of freedom
and life we joyfully drink
inside, all was new, but outwards
nothing had changed

An escapade,
then to the altar to
evaluate all parts
of the great mystery
but all remains
on the same spot,
no signs of a new season

In my hand is a new word,
but the word is still
without a body
a hidden life-stream that
swells in the deep
will soon give the word
a second face

Dawn of a New Day

The thoughts of yesterday forgotten
I like the way this new skin feels
Bring me splinters of tomorrow
Collect the parts where I win

Against the grain
Against the odds
I'll rise and I won't trip again
The dawn of a new day never looked
As good as this

Concrete breath and dust filled tears
A one way ride to inner peace
I never thought I'd join the others
Those who use the dice to solve the maze

Morning Mist

I am afraid to open my eyes.
Horror of facing the day.

Mist of the morning is fading,
while cancer burn in my bones.
Horror of facing the pain.

Years ago I had plans,
what to do with my life.
But now it all is so futile.

Oh.. again my fears come true
and painkillers are out of effect.
To the pain I must reconcile.

The color of my desperation,
if I wouldn't be heading to Christ.
Would even be darker than now.

My dream is to wake one morning
without these tears of pain.
Oh.. why can't I just die?
The color of my desperation,
if I wouldn't be heading to Christ.

Love Demise

As I walk this sidewalk all alone, wet from rain and so cold
I press my head down and try to hide from their looks

Deep inside I cry in pain, so intense it drives insane
I walk away from love that became betrayal

In my heart I bear the scars
That remain there forever
Clawed by Love Demise

Once partners now just apart
Left alone by betrayal
Clawed by Love Demise

"They were so young"; I heard them say, but that is not a reason
To rip my heart and leave it out to bleed

I lay my eyes up to the stars, and pray that I'll find her
The one I thought I found, but I am still looking for

Realm of Hatred

I Invite you for a ride... journey into my mind...
The realm that you shall find...winter cold hatred inside...

Welcome to My Realm of Hatred.

Like icy bone fingers clawing my mind.
The vague darkness growing inside.
The madness I've been fighting is now taking over.
My life in vale of hatred become too obscure.

...No Escaping...Hate Within...Here to Stay...
...In My Realm of Hatred...

Anguish grows in me...Never ending sorrow I see...
My realm my chance to be free...Winterfrost eases my grief...

Clouds filter moonlight reflection from snow.
Beauty of nature gives me new hope.
It´s so much easier to hate than feel love.
And Ive seen that love is the only way out of hate.

...Farewell...From My Hell...Farewell...

The Sun no longer rises

The Mist Of The Twilight
You Could See Me Come
To Walk The Endless Woods Alone
The Earth Is Freezing
As I Walk It Become Colder.

Forever Descending In A Place Of The Moon
Where Shadows Moves With Grotesque Eyes
Where Demons Rise

Surrounded By Black And Mourning Moonfog
And The Eyes Of The Dark Ones
Sempiternal Woods Wait Only For Me
A Path Opens Clearly
The Sun No Longer Rises
Over Cold And Forgotten Valleys
The Sun No Longer Rises
Where I Walk And Where I Come
I Believe In Tragedies
I Believe In Desecration
To The North And Into Eternal Winters
To The North In The Grip Of Eternal Frost

The Core of Love

Eternal night, internal fight a struggle
Within never ceasing,
Enter my world, the secret landscapes I rule,
The land of the dancing shadows...

God the enchanter,
A soul devourer
Seen holy only by the blinds,
But she is no more,
Thy will be done
From this chaos I rise
Enthroned god of bloody tears...

Day by day your image fades,
And your face as an icon
Will be the key to my kingdom,

As a new born child I cry out with pain
The thorns of my crown carve my wounds so deeply
And I dance on your grave,
But they shall old no barriers between you and I...

Our pale embrace survives beyond dawn,
Like two stars in the early morning haze,
Although not visible to common eyes
Now I'm dead but yet my life has just begun...........................