THE NIGHT BEFORE DAWN

The music was pumping.....

Lights were dimmed,

Liqueur was flowing.....

And the entire room was filled with smoke

It was a regular Saturday night-

But today felt strange in a way......

The usual ambiance of the room was intoxicating tonite & tears rolled down her cheeks. She had a cigarette in her hand & her eyes looked over at the bar. The lone man with the drink caught her attention as his musky perfume drifted through the air. Her mind was in turmoil & she felt confused as the gamut of feelings flowed through her body. Her eyes fixed to the bar, she saw the man swirl the remaining drink in the glass in a manner of fond remembrance. Her eyes expressed fear, grief & joy at the same time. Her heartstrings tugged for the lone man & his grief-filled halo. She felt connected & not withdrawn as her mind tried to make a perfunctory decision. Struggling with her inner demons she grappled with new possibilities without exploring the dark tunnel of her life. As she moved forward the man got up & left. The picture of perfection remained so much in her eyes that it never left the closed door. And that Saturday night continues for endless more.

What is the matter with parallel religions & cult dynamos of faith? The disillusions of many idealistic people are been threatened by the same bigotry that has prevailed 5000 years ago. Isn’t faith collaborated with human instinct & divine endeavors? Doesn’t it involve the same faculties of life’s diverse experiences….or does it simply wilt away to the collective breeze. The unseemly metaphors do nothing to eradicate the establishment…yet the wind is blowing in the right direction…

Downcast

Lay out the spade in a nation of hate
Where the color of skin rules all
Now see the hands of the dealer of lies
Where the weak are humbled and fall

And my hands are tied
In this world's demise
Now borrowed time

And you walk the line
In this world sublime
And you're left behind
But don't pray for me

Downcast... in your world to be
Downcast... and we all shall see

Now breath the air n this world's despair
Where the face of hope is lost
Now taste the truth in a world of lies
Where the mother of justice is gone

Freedom is not a whisper
Freedom is not a lie
Freedom is the price we pay for those who fought and died

Don’t U Cry

Little by little
I've come to this point
On my own I've been lookng my way
I lost you so early
The days went so fast
You don't know how I prayed every day

A song to remember
A song to forget
You'll never know how I tried
To make you proud
And to honor your name but
You never told me goodbye

Now that you are gone
Casting shadows from the past
You and all the memories will last

Don't you cry
Or suffer over me
I will be waiting for you

Now that you are gone
Casting shadows from the past
In my dreams I hear your voice at last

Welcome the Shadows

Like the shadows cover me
Rising from my ecstasy...

In a glimpse from a quiet childhood
I recall a mother's smile
Nothing needs to be understood,
I am free

In the deep of a distant forest
I'll lose my sense of time
Where the words of the wind is honest,
I can breathe

Someone told me there's a higher mountain
But I'll wait here for a while
Only led by the deepest hunger,
I'll flee from exile

Like the shadows cover me
You're behind me once again
Rising from my ecstasy
Rising from my pain

Like the shadows follow me
You can wash my steps away
Not the one I want to be
But still somehow the same

Interlude To Eternity

As I sit upon these rocks above
I feel the waves crash upon the shore
As the sea sprays on my glowing face
I wish I could embrace the sea
for evermore
As I lay my head to sleep at night
I dream the sea and me we flow as one
But I'm a prisoner of the sands and
no one understands these childish dreams

An old man approaches me
His feeble mind confusing to thee
He speaks in riddles and rhymes
Tales of an old witch that cast him
From the sea
But wait my eyes full of splendor
Or could this be some crazy old tale
I look to his eyes for the answer

I will sell my soul to the sea
For Eternity….an while away

And so the journey begins
The pain and suffering
Are your dreams worth this torment?
You can deal another hand
But the light in the distance
Promises this the journeys end

I will sell my soul to the sea
For Eternity….an while away

The Black Halo

Come wind
Come snow
I have resigned myself to death
Come will to show the hidden hand
So I can draw my final breath
You could take me higher
So you said and I trusted you
I may be a liar, but betrayal lies on you

I can feel where the journey ends
Final call for a last defense
Darkness come tonight
I have no fear of what you hold
Darkness come alive
You are the stories I've been told

I posses the power
Of survivor in the cold
Darkness is like a flower
As it stumbles out of fall
We all know when our time has come
This is where I will linger on

Darkness come tonight
Nothing can take my faith away
Darkness come alive
Life fades to black from silver grey

When the Lights are down

Rules without exceptions last eternally
Every move you make creates your destiny
I've come to soak my sorrow in halo black
As black as the seal on my soul

When the lights are down
There's no more to say
Love is the real pain
An internal revolution in our minds
And when the lights are down
You're so far away
Tell me your real name
In the silence of the darkness we unite

What can protect me from the past
And all the things that I have done
He told me and he was gone

But when the lights are down
There's no more to say
Deep in the shadows
Where the last of my delusions made a stand
We will see an eternity of the void
And in death we'll live the love we never had

The Edge of Paradise

Sleepless
Not really quite awake
Where the soul conforms
To deeper needs
Free within frames of custody
I revolve my spirit and exhale

On the edge of paradise
Poison burning
In my veins
Unavailing...compromised
My dreams remain the same

Soothing but yet so violent
In this world within the other world
Moonlight...in visions...heaven sent
I see demon eyes and wings unfurled

On the edge of paradise
Powerless
I sail on by
Undermining life itself
My will to wonder why

Memento Mori

Who wants to separate
The world we know from our beliefs
And who sees only black and white
Distinguish loss from sacrifice
Some day we may come to peace
With the world within ourselves

And I will await you
Until I close my eyes

When your time has come
You know you'll be lonely once again
And the final winter comes to us all
Life is treacherous
But you're not the only one who must pretend

We're a second in time
We're the last in the line
Of the prey that walks the earth
Good and evil combined

And it comes to an end
Even winter... like fall
And we all have our beliefs
Pray for mercy for all

I am a entity without a mystery
The deal is done within
I will embrace the coldest winter breeze
And pay for every sin

Centre of the Mind

Move slowly
Beyond the colors of my eyes
Move slowly
Into the corners of my mind
Rising like the Pegasus
Each and every one of us released
Islands in the sea of dreams
Always searching harmony and peace

All we find
When we reject our mind
Don't you wonder why

If the war by heaven’s gate released desire
In the line of fire someone must have known
That a human heart demands to be admired
But in the center of the universe
We are all alone

Show me sign of paradise
A place we all would like to go
Tell me what to sacrifice
So there's a chance for me to want you

I have a tale to be told won't you listen tonight
Follow me into the core of the fountain of light
Try to imagine that hope is our ship for the soul
Over the ocean the quest of your life lies ahead
Maybe together we'll find there's a place for us all………….

Cycles of Eternity

When the light is in your back
And the eve in your eyes
Do you feel the breath of anguish?
Will you ever know
The fear to awake?
Will you face the truth?
I will...but it isn’t a victory

Every night is a never ending book
Unread by many,
Written by all,
But once you stare at it,
Addiction to this doleful experience is a bargain
Without the sun, there is nothing
As I know it so well

Shadows are so close,
Even if I hate them
Now it is time to make a step further
Life is not on my side
But I will never surrender

Don't you know legions of pain
Always march on your light,
I am not the bringer of darkness
I am not the king of fools,
Just the river that streams through the ethereal landscapes of my own loss
And that carries the fallen leaves of your dying trees

Don't you know oblivion never forgets you... To die in a sigh,
To live in a lie,
It is the same
The sound of the busy bees in my glass,
Reveals to me my destiny and its pleasure in agony

Nocturnal Call

Leaving a cradle of light
Falling into hell at the first sight
Staring at this new chaos
Life embraces me without desire

Touched by the hand of divinity
A wisdom as blind as me
I feel the stench of a putrid life
Lies and suffering are but my fate

Dropped in a desert field of hate
Waiting for the unknown to harvest
My ethereal crop
A tear that vanishes before touching the ground
I feel nothing, nothing but my futility

Lies, surrounded by lies, just tell me why?
Why do we have to foresee
Our desolate fate as soon as we are born?
We are puppets but who pulls the strings?
Dusk after dusk we crawl like vermin
On a ground that we don’t even posses
I live in a no-man’s land
A place held by hypocrisy
The hypocrisy of god and men

I contemplate this bereaved soul
And I see through this diamond
A cradle filled with passion
Opening on a shadowy coffin
Poetry once spoken by the innocent child
Who praises spectral sentiments

All the perfumes from the inner past
Entwined with the magenta sky
Warp me to suffer my delight
Dusk, I pledge my allegiance to thee
Innocence kneels down towards
The tempting night
Futility of wisdom enthrones
The bereavement of my life
The quest for my equinoctial desires
You preachers of the untold
Feel the blood that surrounds us for the call....

Contempt of the Plague

I have no sympathy for humanity
I dream of my end.................In this world of pain.
I bet there's no future, I know there's no true,
I wait for the silence finally to come through.
As a needle .........................in the arm of Death

But unveiled I am
For the ones who seek behind the painting.
That we all drawn from our darkest sins...
My colours are fading ............All appears so bleak.

I'll pay the price to kill that plague,
Ignorance is still source of denying.
The path we are striding on
Is made of the attempts of former slaves
To believed in existence.
But we are all condemned to remain silent,

The door to reality...we are too blind to see!
Once denied and still rejected,
You hate the ones who dare
To raise against your corruption
And break the chains of despair.....
But I am the kind of fool you can only fear!!
I swear I'll never bow to you
A lord of flies, a shadow, a lie!
And now I know that I was true
As I hold you all in contempt.

Deities of the Dew

The twilight as a veil covers yours will
In the shadows of the night the dreams I sow become my pride
the starry vault beholds my reign and light my throne
I awake so close to death that my life holds to a breath

Flying far from mortal life
Forgetting your tranquility
I will stand for sovereignty
A new god, this is what I will be

Through the eyes of a sad ghost the world appears so cold
To have a revenge on the past made of me a sinful beast
The sweet caresses I used to feel
Carve now and forever my name on the stone
An epitaph unread by all, anger blinds my hollow eyes

I exhumate all my desires….. In the haze of dawn lies my deception

Mourning of a New Day

Down the red mountain
Each day I have to climb,
My eyes stare at you
The perfect sky, so high.

Down the red mountain
I fear to tread,
Close to catharsis
I fall like an autumn leave
Burnt and forgotten

Cyclic storms in my heart
Rage and brew so deeply.

My mask won't hide me no more
Life appears to me just like nothing,
Nothing else but an epitaph
Unread by all.

And I drown in this void...
Each day, a new pain
Each day a new death.
The only way to preserve my creation
Is eradication, in a sigh ...
No blasphemy, no heaven in sight

Nothingness as a picture of my desires
That I will never, never paint.
The blood that feeds my life
Is not my own

Down the red mountain
I fear to tread,
Close to catharsis
I fall like a dead leave

The Race of Sirens

Second Place to you is the last place I ever thought I'd be
In this race the selfish survive while the selfless suffocate in suffering
I'm choking on the words that kept us alive
Now it’s ok to say goodbye
when your world turns black you can’t take back
All the lines you have crossed and trust you have lost

So take my hand, no, not to hold
You could use the extra fingers to count your mistakes
Because this distance has only lead to deception
A curse for every mile
A lie for every smile

Drown in your goodbyes, and miss what we had
Foreign tongues are burning above self-righteous heads
Its so dexterous and articulate and I count on too many fingers and friends.
If your body is a temple then your roof is on fire
Let us drown in our goodbyes and miss the way once shown...........

Sorrow Becomes Me

Beneath the lonely willow, the tired angel lays.
Her arms outstretched, her stomach curled, from deep within she cries...

"Why do I seek peace? Why doth mine eyes deceive me?
On Earth I play, on Earth I die! When might I believe?"

Thoughtless words are spoken here and hateful eyes for all who are near.
"My wings can't save me now from all that I have seen!

Forgive me as I ponder the meaning of it all.
Seems so unfair to wander with no questions of life beyond!

And all of this hurt from my pointless mission here...
On Earth I've played, on Earth I've died! When might I believe?"

From above, the silent sky reaches out and dries her eyes.
"Be free! Be at all like me! Be near and one with the breeze!"
Don't leave me here to die

Beneath the lonely willow, the fallen angel thinks about this world
and why she's here and of her world of dreams...

"Beauty lies within me...why can't others see?
On Earth I'm sent to change life, but in this I no longer believe..."

No More The Fool

Just why I stayed around
When all I found was a heartache
I believed your every word
Didn't know the hurt and pain that you'd make

But why did it take so long
Alas, now I've seen the light
I found the heart to say

No more the fool
Who waits around
Waiting for you to bring me down
Those days are gone now

No more the nights
laying' awake
crying' and waiting' for the day to break

No more the sound as my dreams fall and hit the ground
While I'm waiting' around
No more the fool

You thought I'd break
Then you were wrong
That I wouldn't see what's goin' on
But I knew

Here I am
I'm alive
And you'll see I'll survive
Without you

And I won't be the one who comes running'
It ain't like it used to be
It's your turn to run to me

No more the fool ...
All the nights I waited for you to call
I waited for a sign that you would stay
But it's so clear
You didn't care at all
No more the fool

Down in my Icy grave

Dark are the skies lit by the neon lights;
I walk on the street in embrace of the wind.
Fear, that gnaws me in its jaws;
I bury my head in my hands from the world.
And the voice in my head won't leave me alone...

Black are the walls that imprison my soul;
Darkness surrounds me in the cloak of the night.
Down, deep inside I say a prayer for my soul;
My phobias ruling the life I once had.
And the voice in my head questions my faith...
All that I need from thee to be free...

Lower me down in my grave;
And bid me farewell.
Lower me down in my grave;
With the flowers I'll wither away.Alone in the dark, in the silence of the night;
Long is the road to the lights of the day.
I close my eyes in the frozen ground;
I see my old self in the cold soothing soil.
And the voice in my head silenced by faith...

Where Dark and Light don’t differ

Barbaric tempered steel strike forth and toll our days
the red and black of our Victorian crest
We flag beneath... beneath the solar seas
we grant as the might to conquer so spread be our wrath...

Meet the voice of us dark & blind souls as it blasts from an open sky
victorious we live over all strong men under us fall
The longer we ride this yearn will make us find
where dark and light don't differ...

Winterized... blackening descends
Mesmerized... into demonlands

Far... far and further away
In mightful strong and mindless realms
We flag beneath... beneath the solar seas
again it's time to conquer so spread be our wrath...
Where dark and light don't differ...
The longer we ride the stronger we stride...